I cannot believe it's been 2 years. If you would have known how much you were loved you would still be here. I am so sorry that this world was too dark for such a heart made of light. You will be the light for all of us to look up in the sky to and you will remind us what it is to be pure love. You are changing lives every day and I will do my best to live a life you would be proud of I love you forever. You will always be a part of me.
Love Mom.
Hi sweet girl, you never know what to write to you, you know all the things that are going on. I brought some Sour Patch Kids to share with you today. I see somebody came and visited you and brought you conversation hearts. That makes my heart happy. It was sunny today and I brought you some Valentines decorations, I hope that you like them and I will keep living my life in honor of you. My time with you was way too short. I thought we had forever. Im so lucky to be your mom. Im so lucky that you were the kindest. Sweetest most loving person I know. I couldn't have ever asked for more. I only wish you had more time with me here because 13 years was not long enough. You are still bringing good to the world and I know you wanted that. I love you most.
As the fall air hits the I don’t see cats visiting our house as often. We have 2 as I am sure you are cuddling our sweet Callie girl and she is finally letting someone give her loves. When ever I see a cat in the yard I think “oh Myah would love you”. Tonight as I was thinking of what to say I heard a frog through my window. I firmly believe it is your way of saying “you are doing great.” I have not been to see you for a while and I am so sorry. I am going to do better to go see you.
I think of you all the time and how much you would have loved this year. As I see all the post about homecoming I can’t stop but think of how beautiful you would be all dressed up. I know you would have asked Adriana about what to wear and to help.
Hockey has started and you would definitely be on my list to take this year. Even if it is to see Adriana get worked up over the fights.
You got to go see Jelly Roll and Post Malone with Andy and I in June. Oh my when Jelly Roll came out singing I felt you right there having the time of your life.
You helped me see that I can do so many things and make so many beautiful things. I have made a few quilts and I can honestly say I have a few that I am so proud of. I have gave one to your mom and I call it Myahs quilt as the saying just fits for what you have taught me. One I made Adriana for her birthday a few years ago, the first one I did that was an actual quilt not just squares. Then I decided to make one for the Garden Party we had for ya and let me tell you. That thing was hard, for so many reasons. Many broken needles and lots of chats with you. Mostly asking you to give me a break and let me finish without breaking a needle. Through it all you kept telling me never to give up and it will be finished. The time I spent on the Exploding Heart Quilt will stay with me for years to come. I had you in my corner telling me not to give up and that I can do it.
Your kindness, sweetness, joy and love are missed. I know you visit everyone all the time and send us sweet memories and messages and that helps me when I am having a hard day. We love you beautiful.
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My sweet daughter, how much I've missed you. You should see how wonderful your place looks and how quiet and peaceful. My friend Kenzie never met you but I'm sure you would have liked her. We take your memories to the concerts you would have liked to see remembering how much you enjoyed the last couple with me. As your mom mentioned, this would have been your first homecoming and I would have enjoyed seeing you dress up and go to it remembering all the daddy daughter dances we went to together. To be honest, it's been really quiet in the house. Too quiet. I miss you so much. Love you.
All my memories are from when we were kids. In the back yard they had this play house that Myah, Adriana and I would all play in. We loved to play in until we got chased by bees. 🐝 in the summer I loved going over to Adriana's and Myah’s house in the summer as a kid. They had this huge Barbie house we would play with. They also had a one eye cat I thought was so cool.
Hi sweet girl, I came to visit you today today I brought you another car it's a pink Datsun not sure what you would think about that. I also brought you some more blue flowers because blue is your favorite. Homecoming is coming up and this would have been your first year of homecoming you would have looked so beautiful in your dress! I know your friends are thinking about you you are so loved! It's starting to get cold out here but I know you are nice and comfy. I am glad you're not in pain anymore but I miss you so much. I'm going to continue trying to be the best person that I can be and go forward with all of my awesome memories of you and help perfect you were!
Dear sweet girl, you are so loved. I think of you everyday and everything I do. I am going to keep living my life as you would have lived your life. You would have wanted me to be happy. I am going to think of your beautiful smile and laugh and continue to find joy every day. I left you a cute little Dodge Charger today. I hope your Dancing in the Sky watching over me! I am going to continue to spend time in nature and hope that you are at peace and continue to find mine!
Sweet daughter, I talked with you today. You are the most precious memory I have. I will fight to live a life you would have been proud of. I will love with my whole heart, I will be strong for you. I will keep fighting for love and kindness. When the days are dark I will remember what you said..
Live your best life.
I know you did, even while hiding such tremendous pain. Your smile and kindness lit up the room.
You will always be my daughter and your smile will always be with me. I love you so much.
I brought you a turtle from the most beautiful lake in Idaho and also one from South Carolina. You are surrounded in love, just like we are surrounded by your love.
Keep sending us sparkles, the world needs it.
I came here to visit with you today at your quiet resting place. Up here on the mountain top it’s so peaceful. I’m thinking about your life and how you’re inspiring me to be the best version of myself I can be to help others. You have not been forgotten my sweet girl. I will continue to be everyone’s friend in the same spirit as you. I will do what I can to help others battle the challenges of growing pains that come with being in this world were in. Love you so much ❤️
Hi Myah. Today I missed you so much. I handed out flags for veterans day and remembered the day you were in cub scouts and we went to the memorial. The flag you stood at at the cemetery is still here. I will continue to be strong for you. You are my person and always will be. I LOVE YOU.
Visiting you has always been one of my favorite moments when we would come to Oregon. Seeing your smile, how you love, just you being you. Visiting now is hard, as I never got to really tell you much you really meant to me.
I will cherish every memory I have and help other keep your memories alive.
Hi Myah. Yesterday we has a huge garden party to fundraise for suicide prevention and mental health. We were all there for you and the rest of the community. I am going to follow your directions and do what you have shown me.. I will do everything with love. You would have loved the party and I knew you were there when the wind and storm blew in for a moment. I LOVE YOU.
You are my beautiful daughter forever! I hope you can see me and lead me to do the right thing always. I will always speak your name and share your love. You are missed greatly and never forgotten.
